The reason I started a blog, may sound selfish, but it’s actually the complete opposite.
The year of 2017, that September, my son was born. The little guy I had prayed for, the tiny body I had been carrying with me everywhere I went for 9 months, was finally here. A feeling of euphoria swept through my body. Tears of complete joy streamed down my face. This new love I never knew existed filled my heart. Little did I know the sadness that would creep in, that would hover over me for the next several months.
I had fallen into the dark hole of postpartum depression.
It was actually a while before I even realized it. Or maybe I had, I just ignored it. Not sure if it was because I didn’t want to believe it or because I felt embarrassed. I’m sure it was both of those but I knew I didn’t want to talk about it, to anyone. I didn’t want my husband to know that I was falling apart inside. I wanted my fellow mom friends to look at me and think I had it all figured out. I wanted to keep it together in front of my family.
I may have kept it hidden inside for a while but, it eventually started to show. I started falling apart at work, I didn’t want to get out of bed. My husband was completely shut out. I barely wanted to see or talk to my friends. I started second guessing my bucket list family trip to Hawaii that had been booked before my son’s arrival, because I didn’t want to leave him. My anxiety and mom guilt were taking it’s toll and I knew at any given moment, I was going to explode.
Self-care is giving the world the best of you, instead of what’s left of you.Katie Reed – Pinterest
July 2018, I had finally scheduled an appointment. But, I couldn’t even get the words out to tell the doctor how I felt. I just knew my doctor thought I was crazy. There it was, written on paper: Adjustment Disorder with Mixed Anxiety and Depressed Mood. It sounded scary, but even scarier was the fact I had been living with this for months. I was relieved to know I wasn’t crazy and that what I was feeling was real. So, I took the medication and it helped.
But, I knew I needed more.
I needed to write. So, I started writing my feelings and little notes from my road thus far through motherhood and it has helped me tremendously. This is how the idea of starting a blog came along. I want to reach other moms because I know I’m not alone. I want to shed a little positivity for other moms, to let them know there’s a light at the end of the postpartum tunnel.
In the end, I’m the only one who can give my children a happy mother who loves life.Unknown – Pinterest
So, here I am. I started a mini blog on Instagram sharing the things that make me happy, the ways I’ve found happiness again. I wanted to reach a larger audience, more moms, so I decided to start this site. You’ll see the recipes I love to make, the d.i.y projects my husband has a huge part in and the joys/struggles of motherhood, along with some tips!
I’m so excited to have all of you on this trip with me! I can’t wait to meet other moms, who also want to share their stories. I hope my reasons for starting a blog will help you in deciding if blogging will help you too!
I’d love for you to check out my article on self-care tips for busy moms. These are some of the ways I make time for me!